Over the past week A LOT has happened. A LOT. Collectively, professionally, personally, there's just a lot of movement. That's how I've been calling it. Movement, shifts, opportunities for growth. And in the midst of this, what happens? I feel swept up, rushed, confused, unable to focus, it's a lot of fear basically. What's going on? How will it end up? Why is it like this right now? Why can't this all just match my vision of how I see it, right now, just as it should be? And then about myself... can I handle this? How will I manage it? Am I ready to do this? Do I want to do this? Will I ever know? Will I ever feel confident enough to do this? And yes, all of this, especially during these times. Fear comes in, fear lingers, and how does it make me feel? Is it bringing resolution? No. Is it making me feel better? No. Is it productive? No. And so I learn. Asking all of these questions and wondering and worrying doesn't get me anywhere but stuck in my head. When I shift into love, when I sit and breathe and take a minute, things present themselves, things are just there. It's all there, all along.
If you've been in touch with me recently, you've probably heard of the issues I'm having with my apartment and management company; we've been out of gas since a fire in July and there is little to no word on updates. I've begun to hold monthly housing meetings and created a facebook group for correspondence and information sharing. This takes a lot of my energy, a considerable amount. But the truth is that I enjoy bringing people together, I enjoy educating myself and others on issues of importance, I enjoy empowering people, and I enjoy standing up for what is right. I feel power, I feel courage, and I feel strong. It brings out the best in me.
On the flip side, it can also wear me out... when I spend my free mornings and evenings holding meetings, doing research, meeting with attorneys, calling the company. It can be exhausting. So I read my cards last week or two weeks ago and what showed up... all things about my home and my housing situation. The story read that I am taking on much more than is needed and that I already know that it's not a great situation and that the company is being dishonest and tricky in their business. The outcome revealed to me just what I needed to know, "Justice", that all would end just as it is supposed to. The truth will be revealed, there is no rush, just trust and know and prepare myself. So I stopped the rush for information, I stopped filling up my time with meetings and phone calls. I began to focus on my work and the movement going on there, and when I did...
My first work-study came in on Saturday for his training. We went through ins-and-outs of the online system, space, shift responsibilities and then talking about some things... shared a bit about my housing issue, then he about his; similarities, three roommates, old building, not too thrilled with the management company and overall vibe of the situation. He tells me he's been in court for months with his housing company over several issues, first gas and now holdover. I ask about the gas issue, he says the gas was shut off because the pipes were too old and had to be replaced in the whole building. The same issue as in my building. He says the process took two years. It's been six months at mine. He said he withheld rent. I said we have started to as well. I ask who his management company was and he says... "E&A?" "E&A or E&M? They both exist, E&A is good, E&M, not so much." "Not sure, but I do know that before the case started, the building was sold to them by Galil management."
My jaw dropped... the SAME management company. Same situation. Pre-fire, Galil. Post-fire, E&M. Exactly. They pass it on and on and on, avoiding what needs to get done, avoiding any trouble, one huge scam. Like playing chips on a board. Except we're not and I won't let them... He then proceeded to outline the whole process, what he did, what they did, the court, the settlement, the details. It was just what I had been looking for. It was what I had been hoping to hear or find somewhere. Someone who had been through and knew what to do. And so it goes. When I stopped pushing and pulling, and scheduling and doing, there it was. When I settled back into myself and brought my focus to what I truly needed to get done, all of the information I was seeking came to me, in divine timing. Not on my watch, but just when it was meant to. And there it was, right in front of me. It was all there. All along.
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